Blessings and Losses

The reality is that life is fragile.  It can be taken away.  Quickly.  

Ever since Glenn's heart attack scare, I am breathing every moment with him as an extra gift of life.  I know the Lord could have taken him home.  But He didn't.  I am looking at life differently.  I have realized several things.

Blessings

Family is important.  Thinking immediately of my mom, I see the Alzheimer's  disease slowly eating away at her mind.  She can't remember her grand children's names, she forgets where I live and work, and she doesn't know what happened yesterday. However I must focus on the fact that I love her. I have memories.  Delicious memories of her fried chicken, okra, biscuits and gravy, and Mexican pile up dinners.   I love her even when she might not remember my name.  I love her because she is my mom.  My desire is for my children to appreciate and love me as much as I love my mom.

Losses 

I have experienced losses in the past several weeks and months.  Losses hurt.  It is painful.  I have lost a dear friend.  I have lost the things of "how they use to be".  I can't go back to retrieve them.  I could have lost Glenn.  Praise the Lord I didn't.  It is what it is. I have an empty feeling of disconnect with family over the many miles. There are losses of being a mother far from my children (although now I am enjoying being a Grammie). ....But now I am gradually losing my mother.

In conclusion, I am thankful to God my Savior.  Thankful for life.  Extra life.  Thankful for family.  And thankful for God's grace. 

...And I am trying to be thankful for the losses in my life.
 

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

 ~J